Philosophy and Hypocrisy

Today,for me,it’s not a really good day i think,coz many things made me stressed out and at last i can’t hold anymore my madness,and went berserk throwing my mouse (mouse for computer) ,throw it till rip apart and broken,and then throw it again,and throw again until i satisfied… >_< gonna go buy new one
huhuhu,spent money again T_T

i just don’t understand,why i can’t hold this feelings?eventhough i don’t want to mad…
eventhough i tried to suppress it,it just came out…
It’s easy to say "calm down",but it’s not as easy as that…
looks like i still need to take care of this or else it will become boomerang to myself  >_<

For today,no poem,coz of my mind not in good condition to make  a poem >_< huhuhu

They said : "I’m already at my limit,can’t u understand?"
I asked : "Just how much was the limit?" coz i dunno how much my limit in this life
How much i can live as max as possible from this limited life?
How bout u? Do u know ur limit in ur life?

For today poem :

            Limited Life?

    I looked at the sky
    There are dark clouds
    Show their sadness
    Their tears fall down
    In the middle of rain

                      People were sad
                        Looking at the reality
                        Brint it to their dreams
                       Felt the pain

                                  Unlimited sky
                                  Give limited hope
                                  People tried to go to the sky
                                  To hold unlimited things

           Isolated,Guilty
            Just like a sharpen spear
           Stabbed in fantasies
            Throwing away the spirit to live

                 Then people fall
                From the high place
                Fall down bcoz of their wish
                That not always fulfilled

        Coz of Limit
        People won’t live forever
        There’re sad things
         There’re good things
         So that Life could become full of meaning…

Today,i woke up again,facing new day,new things?
Boring?Exciting?I don’t even know what should i say
I don’t want to feel any pain anymore,it’s enough,I"M TIREDDD!!!!
How can i get rid of this stupid heartache?It sucks… hahahaha,just a bit crazy maybe?

For today poem please feel it with our heart ^^ :

             Tears

You smiled in front of me
Looking at me
But ur tears keeps faling down
To this cold floor

            I remembered the day   
            When u first time come here
            U attracted many people
            Bcoz of ur kindness

    Slowly,u become popular
    Many people adore u
    They want to be by ur side
    To feel  ur kindness

                      Till the day
                      When that thing happened
                      Everything changed
                      People slowly gone away from u

           Bcoz of ur sickness
            They gone away
            They forgot about u
            As if u never exist

      I just hold ur hand
      They still felt warm
       There’s still kindness in there
      That won’t gone away

                 And i said this to you
                  "Even others leave you
                  As long as one person still holding u
                  U still able to survive"

            U just smile to me
            Hold me tightly
           Saying many thanks
            For the last time

                   U seemed to sleep with peace
                   Left me only ur warmth
                    And the kindness in my heart
                    Goodbye,my tears…

Everything just as usual again,campus life,meeting new friends
For now,i feel lonely,why ? Even myself don’t understand why,but i can feel my heart’s in painful condition
In front of everyone,i can smile,can laugh,but when no one’s around,this pain come again,it really sucks
This is life,wether u like it or not,u must face it,feel the pain,feel the happiness,feel every feelings that exist in this world
Do u realize that u’re exist in this world? Or do u need approval from others for being exist?

For today poem :

            I’m standing
            Thinking alone
            About all i’ve done
            For these past years

I’ve done many things
Right things
Wrong things
I can’t count all of them

                        But then i think
                        Am i good enough
                        Being a nice person
                        Towards the others

        Smiling to others
        Caring their feelings
        Being there when they’re alone
        Is that good enough?

               But when they’re happy
               Everything’s fine
                They forgot me
                The one comforted them

           That made me heartache
            I just feels become as something
            Not become someone for them
          Just become a shelter for them   

                        When they need me
                        They come
                        When they don’t need me
                        They gone away

                I am angry
                   I felt really mad
                    Coz i’m still
                    Human being that have feelings

               Is this the way
               They said their thanks
                To the person that cared about them?
                That’s what i thought

                                    But when i thought again
                                   Am i really good person
                                    When i hoped them will nice to me too
                                    Just as i had done to them?

                        Now I trying to understand
                        To be a real nice person
                        Even though it’s hurt
                       Even though no one’s realize

                                  I will try
                                  Because there’re still many people
                                  That needs love and care